Exhaustion hits

Today I hit a wall.  No not literally, but mentally and physically.  I actually wish I had gotten sick.  Since last week I've not had one good nights rest.  We decided not to take the kindergarten teaching job which was a big relief.  It was too many hours.  I had no idea how that would have worked.  Of course that still leaves us without regular work and that, plus all sorts of other issues, keeps me from resting soundly.  I knew I was irritable yesterday but pushed through it all.  I finished all my commitments but this morning I felt like I couldn't handle it anymore.  We were running late for school and had to run for the bus, then I got shoved pretty hard into the girl in front of me.  I felt so bad about it that I wanted to push someone back.  Ack!  Then at class I couldn't focus on anything.  It seemed like our teacher was writing every character I didn't know on the board.  I felt lost and when she asked me for an answer I told her I couldn't do it.  The look on her face made me want to scream and cry at the same time.  I told her to ask someone else then a few moments later I left the room.  Later on all the women in the place huddled around me asking me questions, giving me chocolate and motherly wisdom.  It was sweet but I knew that I was over tired.  It takes humility to know when you need to slow down. I guess I'm still working on that.  Foreigners here will remind you to rest but I admit sometimes I secretly think: "why?".  Now I know.  I went home and slept almost four hours amidst pounding and construction noise from the apartment above us. Ahh, I feel better but I also feel really embarrassed from my little break down.  What must people think of me?  And you, reading this blog, what do you think?  Just in case you are wondering, I don't want to come home.  I'm happy here.  I'm just impatient with myself and my situation.  I plan on saying no more to others and yes more to naps.  :)  Good advice wherever you happen to live.